two forty-five

Saturday was good. It was a long day though. I did some homework but didn't have much that needed to be done and couldn't really be bothered doing it all so I did a bit and then did nothing for a long part of the day. Quite a waste really. I think I tidied my room a bit. Went for a walk. Then went into the city with my friend where we literally just wondered around for the night. We didn't walk into one bar or club. Just wondered all night. I think we learnt a few good lessons though. I was reminded that going into the city to go out but with no real plan is not an ideal at all. It was fun though. Better than spending my night in. I hate spending Saturday nights in!

So I got up at 2.45 this morning. Or should I say this afternoon. I went to bed at 3AM but I in no way intended to sleep until three o'clock in the afternoon! Maybe 11.... or even 12. Not 3 in the afternoon! I didn't feel that tired so I thought my clock must have been tricking when the digital red numbers read 2:45. I thought maybe I was seeing things... or there should have been a 1 in front of the 2. But no. I checked my phone and it agreed with the clock unfortunately. I slept most of the day away! Lucky I didn't have to much homework that I had to get done. Then I really would have been in trouble!

But oh well. I got what a needed done and went for a walk. Was a good day really. or.... afternoon. Except then because I'de overslept so much I didn't go and get a netball ring and ball like I needed to.

Tomorrow I'm going to the gym to begin the one months free membership that I won! So that should be fun. I'm looking forward to doing some form of intense exercise. I've been so lazy as far as actually doing something intense since coming to Melbourne.

Anyway, Despite my massive sleep in I'm actually tired so I think I will head to bed shortly. ;)

xo

Whoops!

Fridays are the best. Enough Said.


Except I did get half way to school today and realized I'd forgotten my keys. Thought I could probably get away with not having them for the day only to get into class and realize that my USB with files that I definitely needed was on my keys and that I definitely needed it this morning! Whoops! Lucky my aunty is awesome!


Apart from this the day was good. I even had subway for lunch so that made my day even better. I love subway. And I just could not be bothered at all to make any form of a sandwich as I was walking out the door. It's only the first time in three weeks that I haven't taken my lunch so I think I deserved it!


We even had to do some presentations today and I didn't hate it!


Was surprised I wasn't sore from the deep water running. I even wore my volleys today. Though it was a little uncomfortable.... and now I kind of have blisters on the balls of my feet too.


Can't win! My feet apparently dislike me greatly and just like making life difficult!


Managed to only be up until just after twelve with my homework last night to, so that was a bit of a bonus.


Also just a note on music at the moment. Loving the access to channel V! Alexis Jordan - Happiness is forever stuck in my head at the moment and I still love it. And my new favourite song is Panic! At The Disco - The Ballad of Mona Lisa. 


Anyway, another quote for you:


"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better."
 - Samuel Beckett


and another I thought was pretty good:


"Attitudes are contagious.  Are yours worth catching?" 
- Dennis and Wendy Mannering


Sweet dreams!
xo

Deep Fear

Thursday lived up to it's general expectations. It was ok. But tomorrow's Friday which is my favourite day, not just because it's the last day of the week and pretty much the weekend but because I also love the classes that we have on Fridays.

I actually went to the library and borrowed some books for one of our projects. Impressed? haha. It's only nearly the end of the third week...

Also conquered a bit of a fear today. I went deep water running. I have a bit of a fear of deep water. I have had three near drowning experiences, only one of them actually in a pool all before I was the age of ten. I don't think I've ever been out of my depth before except when clambering onto the edge (except for those three times and I actually think only two of them I wouldn't have been able to stand in the water). But I did it. It was in the diving pool. Way out of my depth and I didn't drown. So what if I was actually wearing a floaty!

So I do feel accomplished for the day. Fear conquered. And I did come quite close to taking off my floaty... maybe next time.

But now, unfortunately, it's time to get back to that homework that kept me up all night last Thursday. Lucky it's homework I like doing! So I'm set for a late one! Time to get out some chocolate and lemon sorbet I think.

Here's another quote for you:

“Fear of failure must never be a reason not to try something.”

- Frederick Smith

http://thinkexist.com/quotation/fear_of_failure_must_never_be_a_reason_not_to_try/343010.html


Hope you're in bed long before me!
xoxox

Bliss

I LOVE that my Wednesday is currently free! Went out last night. Was a pretty good night out. Got home about 3 and then didn't get up until about 11. Did a bit of homework and read a bit of Cosmo and not a lot of anything else. Bliss. Pure bliss.

Dreading tomorrow morning though. I do dislike Thursday morning classes just a little bit at the minute...

Oh well.

Sweet dreams.
xx

is perfection actually possible?

The heels still a bit sore but I think it's getting better. Hope so. Don't really want to walk in thongs for much longer. They're a bit annoying!

Finished another "brief" today in class. So right now I'm feeling that pleasant sense of accomplishment. It wasn't a Fantastically awesome submission of work though. But hopefully it will pass. It's a bit annoying when you have to submit something your not entirely content with. But then I was having a conversation with my friend today about how you always feel like your work is incomplete but sometimes you just have to submit what you've got. I feel quite often you are never rally going to be finished with your work. There's always something you can do to make it better. Something you can improve on. Something you want to just change because you weren't quite happy with how it turned out or something that at the very last minute you wish you could have added in. I guess that is just the perfectionist coming through. But doesn't everyone feel like that? Maybe?

And this weather is a bit annoying. It's a bit cool. And "summer" is almost over! Goodness me!

Anyways,
best go and bring in the washing!

Here's another quote

“Some of us (perfectionists, especially) fuss so much over making the 'right' choice, but in life, all that's really needed is to make any 'good' choice, believe in it, go through with it, and accept the consequences.”  

from here.

So there you go. This would explain my indecisive talents!

Have a nice evening!
xoxo

Antibiotics

I've been a bit slack again.

Saturday night was awesome. Finally went to the doctor with my blister on Sunday. Have to have some antibiotics. Hopefully it's gone by the end of the week. I'm sick of it. It's just so very inconvenient! Wore thongs today. Thought I best leave the blister un-covered. It is looking not to bad. Just sore.

Then I came back to Melbourne. Bought a Cosmo magazine so the trip was a lot better than the way home which just took so long!

Finished off my last bit of homework that had to be done for today, was just about falling asleep doing it I might add! Then was in bed by 10.30 which was actually kind of early in comparison to the last four nights! Which was nice. Though my alarm was very unwelcome when it went off at 7 this morning. But oh well.

Classes were good today. Nothing special. Not too much homework, but enough. More painting for colour theory....

And on that note I might leave you with a nice quote I found:
 

"Colour is fun; colour is just plain gorgeous, a gourmet meal for the eye, the window of the soul."

- Rachel Wolf

Four AM

It's been a while! Two whole days! On Thursday night I was up until four AM doing homework and was too tired to write a blog when I was done (excuses excuses) and last night I came home to the family and couldn't be bothered to visit in front of a computer. So yes. that is my reasoning for not having posted a blog for a few days.

What have I been doing apart from sitting on trains and buses for what felt like the majority of yesterday afternoon? Well my four AM homework stint was pretty intense. By the time I actually went to bed (homework still actually not complete I might add) I was bouncing off the walls from the chocolate and caffeine I had consumed!

Fridays classes were good though. I love Fridays classes.

Thursday was quite good too.

So nice to be home and see everyone. It's so much noisier here though! 

My blister is still pretty bad. Might go to the doctors tomorrow and give them a squiz.

But anyway. Got some homework out of the way and now I'm just getting all glammed up and glittery ready to go out with the girls. Should be awesome! Bit excited. It's been a while!

Hope you all have a lovely weekend!

xoxo
Going out with the girls tonight. It's going to be fantastic.

Purple.

So My heel blister is looking particularly nasty these days. Pretty yuk. and purpley. Quite infected looking. Hopefully I survive it. Don't think I'll be getting new shoes like that for quite some time. Don't know when I'll actually wear those new shoes again...

and unfortunately my day wasn't that productive. Didn't get much homework done... But I did get a bit. Most of what I have to do isn't due till next week. Except this one thing that is going to take me a long time tomorrow after classes! Oh dear.

But I did upload some pictures. Paint my toenails (purple, not as dark as my blister though). and moisturise my legs. Skyped my family. Made the base for a cheesecake. Wrapped some presents. And soaked my foot for a little. So it wasn't a totally nothing day.

Oh well. Hopefully my blister is less gross tomorrow.
It is stressing me quite a bit.

Night
xo

Pretty Rubbish

Today was a bit meh-ish. Feeling pretty rubbish really. Woke up this morning feeling quite unwell and nearly stayed home from school except I really didn't want to get behind. So I went. It was ok. So glad I have tomorrow free except I have a lot of homework to do. So hopefully tomorrow is a productive day or I'm in trouble!

Valentines and Patience...

Happy Valentines Day! Though I'm undecided as to whether I like this specific celebration or not. It's hard to see it as anything more than a high sales day for chocolate makers, card makers, flower retail and jewellers. But all the same I hope yours was a nice one! 

Right now I'm feeling a tad sick. But it's not so much the homesick that's getting me down. Or the Valentines Day enthusiasts. After my walk home this afternoon I was so hot that I changed out of my rather spring weather clothes into some more summery stuff... and then soaked my feet in cold salt water. Smart much? So now I'm cold and warm all at the same time. Maybe a warm milo will fix me. Guess it takes the mind off those blisters a little. Wore my volleys today. Think that will be the shoes for the week.

Apart from this I'm happy. Today was a good day. Came home and did some homework which I am pretty happy with how it's coming along. Patience can give you the power to be good at anything! This is my new motto, for the moment at least.

And then Glee was on. In which as you probably know they did Michael Jackson's Thriller. Loved it. I was so excited for it from the previews last week and it was awesome. Was a bit sad how it ended though...

Anyways. Time for that Milo...

Night
xo

I have all my stuff

Mum came today with two of my brothers and Grandma. My baby brother already looks bigger than when I last saw him. It was so good to see them. And so hard when they had to leave again. I thought I was good but still finding it a bit hard. I'll get there. Eventually.

But it's good because now I have all my stuff! All my shoes. A full wardrobe of clothes. Even got a pin board up and all my other random knick knacks and majiggers are all over the place now. So it looks very much like I actually live in my bedroom now. It's a bit awesome looking. ;) And pretty messy now...

Bit nervous for tomorrow though. It's not the first day of all these classes any more. They expect us to have things done. Stuff to submit. Which I do... It's just.... I'm so worried it's not 'competent'. I've never had to hand work into a teacher face to face before. It's a bit confronting. I guess we will see.

Anyways. Best hit the sack.
Night
xoxo

Massive. Dark. Deep. Scary.

Here you go Dad, here's a long one just for you!

Got down to the beach yesterday afternoon/evening. We went to Rye Beach. By the time I actually went onto the beach and to the water it was pretty dim light. Wow! It's so big. Wow. Massive. Dark. Deep. Scary. Wow! It's SO BIG! Were some of the words that crossed my mind. I mean, I know the ocean is big. But I guess you could say I was a little overwhelmed! Wow. Also by this time you had the gorgeous view of the city lights in the far distance across the water like little sparkling fairy lights. That was pretty cool. Didn't get a picture of that bit though. Next time. Also +points for beach bathroom as it had paper towel to dry your hands on. I hate it when public toilets don't have paper towel!

So there you go. Beach ginity finally lost!

This morning I went out on the beach and found it a lot less intimidating in full light. Also rather white, bright and lairy on my eyes! But beautiful all the same. Went down to the water to dip my feet in but was stopped in my tracks when I spotted these massive slug shaped blobs of what looked like see through jelly or hair gel. I figured they weren't something I wanted to be touching. Not keen to be stung by jelly fish on my first visit to the beach! So it took me a while to actually get in the water. But I did. And despite the quite cool weather we had today it was quite nice just dipping in the feet. Thought the salt water would be good for all those blisters too. The ones from my thongs are nearly as bad as the original ones on my heels now! Hopefully I won't need to put any shoes on tomorrow. Shoe free Sunday sounds good to me!

While at Rye we hired Eat. Pray. Love. Thought 'hey, Julia Roberts, haven't seen that one, wouldn't mind it, on my [mental] list of movies to watch.' I wouldn't really give it more than two and a half stars out of five. It was a bit long and drawn out and just... didn't seem like that much actually happened really. Gorgeous scenery and such things but just not that awesome otherwise. Oh well. At least I can say I've seen it.

We also drove across slash up to Sorrento and Portsea. Saw some real waves! Was beautiful! And we had the best Nachos at the Sorrento Beach Cafe, All Smiles. Also had this flash iced coffee. It was a pretty funky little venue actually. Click the name for a squiz.

Also went for a walk out along the pier. That was pretty cool. Took photos of a lot of this stuff but the lens on my camera was filthy so there not fantastic but I will possibly put some on here when I get them organised.

Tonight before coming home we went out for tea in Rye at the Steam Asian Restaurant. Bit of a new experience. I'm not really a big Asian food eater, haven't been that adventurous and tried much of it either. I had some salt and pepper squid, pork and prawn dumpling, sticky pork salad that had pineapple, coriander and some other stuff in it and there was also some green curry, chicken and rice. This was all pretty nice, though I can't say I'm a fan of curry. I liked the pineapple bit! So I'm still not really into the Asian food but still a nice meal out.-points for Steam as they did not have paper towel in their bathroom!

Just been watching another movie I had been wanting to see that has been out for a few years now. He's Just Not That Into You. This was also a long movie but it was good. Eat. Pray. Love. went for 140 minutes. He's Just Not That Into You went for 129 minutes. Only 11 minutes shorter yet I didn't sit there thinking 'when will this end?!' like I did for a fair amount of Eat. Pray. Love. Much more interesting and drama filled. Just how I like it. I'd probably give it about... three point seven out of five. Not quite a four star movie but it was a lot better than my expectations of what that film was going to be like. I have a bit of a soft spot for Jennifer Aniston and Drew Barrymore. I usually like Scarlett Johansson though not a fan of her character in this film. Justin Long was good. Didn't really like him much before but really enjoyed his character in this one. They were all good.

Get to see Mum tomorrow! Bit excited about that. And Grandma and my oldest and youngest brothers. That's a bit exciting too. And all my stuff will come with them. Thank goodness!     

It's actually nearly a whole hour into Sunday now. Usually at this time of the week I'd be out and about somewhere with friends....

Oh well. Bed time I believe.
Night
xoxo

Under My Umbrella

My new black-with-white-polka dots-cute-as umbrella got to lose it's ginity today! Though it was more like a mist than real rain it's services were required. So I got to stand under my Umbrella-ella-ella, ay ay ay, ay ay ay.

In other news classes were good. I quite like the homework that we were given today so it should be fun enough to do. Life is good. Week one is over!

Off to the beach now. Even though it's overcast and cool and I probably won't be getting out that new bikini, I'm excited! I've never really been to the beach before! Shall be a good photo opportunity.

Hope you enjoy your Friday night!

xo

Talking Blisters

So I finally finished off the homework from day one. A little chocolate was needed but it's done. I hope. Please be passable! Have a little bit of other homework to be done from today but nothing heaps hard. Should be fun to do. Just some drawing... oh and a bit of research. dunno about that one.

I am really enjoying the first week, despite the early mornings. But I feel as though I'm a bit behind everyone else. In knowledge and skills. I'm going to put it down to the fact that I didn't do any art subjects at school. I guess I'll catch up. I think we have to do a presentation thing next week so that is just a tad nerve wracking! Though I don't mind public speaking and it is definitely something I need to get better at... it scares me quite a bit. 

I wore my new Tamsin shoes today. The usual result of a new pair of shoes being warn in has occurred. I definitely got some blisters! Some really bad ones. So after my walk this morning, by the time it was time to come home I decided to go and buy a pair of thongs... so I wore these home and because I haven't had a pair of thongs for a few years I also managed some thong blisters. So My feet are like blister city! I also bought some grey and pink volleys while I was at it. I've been meaning to get some volleys for ages. Think it might be thongs tomorrow though.... these blisters are going to take a while to heal! I also can't wait for my box of shoes to come from home. And all my clothes and other things.

Missed my sisters a bit today. Came home ready for a big chat about absolutely nothing and they weren't here to have the conversation.  I really just wanted to do a lot of talking but didn't want to be just talking to myself.

Oh well.

Night.
xo

Mission One Complete

Wednesday Mission Week 1: Complete. I purchased some Tamsin Grosby shoes. They're a bit cute. So hopefully they will help my feet be a little happier. Though I'm keen to get some other shoes. I need some more variety. ;)

I still haven't finished my homework! But I'm close. I've done majority of the cutting (and got a very sore back in the process from all the bending over a cutting mat!) and have nearly completed both pieces. Fingers crossed that homework from tomorrow is minimal. And then I can finish this stuff off. I hate the feeling of it hanging over my head! It's killing me that something so simple would take me so long.

Anyway, it's rather late and I'm going to hate my alarm in the morning already.


Night
xo

Speaking of Shoes

Day two was good. Quite enjoyable. We had drawing this morning and 3D this afternoon. Nothing too stressful. Though I am looking forward to improving my drawing skills. They definitely need some attention. 

The good news is we didn't get any homework. The bad news is I still have homework to do because I haven't quite got through what we have left from the first day. It's really quite simple but time consuming and tedious. Some of it is quite fun and then the other bit is just... annoying. But oh well. Tomorrow I'll get it done. I will. It must happen! No classes tomorrow so I have a free day (for now) for whatever I need it for. Hopefully I'll get the homework out of the way early and fit in some shopping. ;)

Shopping for shoes is what I need to do the most. As I walk about half an hour each way, each day, my feet are desperate for some comfort and that's just after two days. And I didn't even walk one way yesterday. Actually it possibly wouldn't take me quite as long to walk there and back if I had some better shoes. My problem is I'm stingy and hate spending more than $20 on a pair of shoes! So I'm going to have to bight that bullet and spend some money I think. My feet might like me better for it too. The dilemma is also finding some that are practical but that I actually like and want to wear...

... Speaking of shoes, last week when I was shopping with my sisters I came across a few new loves, but once again because I'm stingy and also because some weren't particularly practical, I didn't purchase. But check these gorgeous lace-up boots and cute wedges out! I'm just trying to justify them.... I really want them both! And I'm trying to decide if I want some Military boots too... These sandal heels are rather nice too... I really do need a bit of a shoe fix.  A shoe solution. I usually buy a cheep pair and wear them to death. Not so good for my poor feet. So my Wednesday Mission is to find some shoes to solve my problem. Maybe I will head into the city.


Packed to the Rafters was back on television tonight. Was so excited for it. And the best bit was I didn't have to tell my younger siblings to be quiet and go to bed! Last night I watched Brothers and Sisters and it was kind of weird. It's something I've always done with my sisters and they weren't here to keep me awake and discuss the show in the ad breaks! It was just a bit odd for me.

Anyways... my eyes are struggling and my lids are getting heavy. These early mornings and wearing walks are taking there toll!


Night!
xo

P.S. Do you like my new skin? I thought it was a bit fitting.

Some Firsts

I had my first ever day of classes today. Ever ever. The first time I have sat in a classroom of students and not my siblings and had a face to face teacher that wasn't one of my parents! It was rather exciting really. As silly as it may sound these little things excite me! These things are new to me entirely. Another first on my first day is homework! I already have some. I had hoped they might go easy on us first day. Guess not. But I'm going to be good and go and do it after I post this to save having it hang over my head. Hopefully it won't take to long.

A bit homesick still. I guess that will last a while.

I also got my own locker today! I've never had a locker before! This also excites me as another first.

So there were a few firsts today...
* Day of Classes (class-ginity?)
* face to face teachers
* actual classroom class mates
* lot of homework
* My own locker (locker-ginity)

And I'm sure there will be many more firsts to come! Lots of 'ginity' to be lost.

Now for that homework...
:/

Messy and Clueless

I've made it to my new home. Not without a messy departure though! It was a lot harder than I had anticipated. Had I known it would be like this I would have perhaps dreaded it a bit more. But I'm here now. And I did receive a very warm welcome. My new home away from home for the next year at least. And I am ok. Although it is rather strange, such an opposite to where I was this time last night. Here it is almost silent except for my radio in the background and the sound of me tapping the keys as I type... and a neighbours dog barking in the distance. Last night I think I was still trying to pack while watching Clueless. On top of this I would have been chatting away with my sisters while you could still hear the television at the other end of the house as well as computer games and fans and probably my baby brother grizzling too. I'm feeling a tad bit clueless at the moment. A little bit lost. I am actually missing the noise as I appreciate the silence.

I guess the homesickness will stick around for a little while. I think this is made worse by the home school factor. Not having spend a gazillion days away from home at school I think makes you a little more attached to home and family. Or maybe I'm just being completely normal.

I'm feeling very excited and surprisingly not that nervous for tomorrow, my first day. That will probably change in the morning though.

Night
xo

The Beginning of the End

So I leave tomorrow. I leave my farm. My home of 19 years. The place I have lived entire life! I've never lived anywhere else. I've grown up here, been good here, been naughty here, worked here and even got my education here. I was home schooled, my classroom is here. The whole house, the whole farm has been my classroom. But now, finally, I’m moving. Moving to a totally different classroom. An opposite. I’m moving to the big city to continue my education. On Monday I begin my study of a Certificate IV in Design. So I’m moving out of home and will be boarding with some relatives in Melbourne, though I imagine I will be home to the farm most weekends.

I am so excited to be starting this new chapter in my life, yet I'm just realizing how sad it is actually making me to be leaving my home.

Although this isn’t a permanent move, it’s depressing me. Although it is depressing me I’m also insanely excited. It’s one of those events in your life that you look forward to for so long that it feels like the time will never come and that it will never actually, really happen. But it is about to. And now I have to pack for it. I think I’m prepared…. I think I’m ready, yet I have barely even started packing. And I really do need to go and pack. Unlike many of my friends that have and will have to move out of home for furthering their education, most can leave their bedroom set up and will still have that to come home to for whenever they want. I have to pack up the best and most I can to make way for my little sister to move into my bed. And it’s hard. I hadn’t thought it would be this hard! That’s why I’m still sitting here writing a blog instead of in my room actually packing. Unfortunately it’s inevitable. I’m going to have to do it aren’t I…

So this is the Beginning of the End. A very exciting beginning and a sad but not entirely bad end. But the end always comes before a new beginning. So I started this blog to document this adjustment in my life, to share the good and the bad, the bitter and sweet experiences of leaving home and whatever changes and interesting adventures that may bring. I’ll leave you with that for now as I best go and start this packing business… I just wish I could use some magic to duplicate all my belongings so I could take a set with me but still have everything here when I come home!